There's no need to commit self harm due to emotional distress, feeling worthless, nor not seeing a point in your existence. Even though I'm attempting to help you via a random darknet onionsite I truly do not want you and others in your mental scenario to commit self harming actions. Don't think about what impact you can make on Earth, think about what you yourself can experience and dont worry about anyone else except for family and those you care for/love. Also consider how your loved ones would feel once you accidentally commit suicide because there was no one to help you at the low mental instance you were in. Do not instate self harm into yourself, everyone has some worthiness, including yourself, potentially more than others. Go to the gym, get a 6-pack and then reconsider committing suicide.